I started a blog a couple of years ago discussing my life with a non-ex. I haven’t seen him since the debacle of my birthday in 05. Bastard refused to go to my party, and actually did not even greet me.
This blog, I started when I moved in with my boy R. We are still together, living harmoniously for six months now. We’ve been together for a couple years and a few months. And I do love him dearly. He just makes my day. When hug hugs me, I do feel like I am melting. These are the good days. and in those moments, him holding my hand makes my heart a flutter.
But lately, I’m very halfhearted with him. He is in a rough patch right now and I can’t get over it. It sucks to be the one wearing the pants in the relationship when the other person is 10 years older than you. Shouldn’t he be doing all these things? I don’t think I’m old fashioned. I’m actually all for equality. I’m bringing this much into the table so I believe he should to. I know I’m being selfish but I can’t help it. He has to grow up.
But I haven’t been a good blogger as of late. Never really updated anything anymore.
And now, I’m getting my groove back on blogging.
Could it be because I’m, and I say this loosely, seeing someone new. An officemate actually.
Even in my messy book, what I’m doing is the very difinition of cheating. It has been more than once. We’ve had repeats that make the tips of my toes tingle.
I find this affair so irresistibly delicious that I look forward to work now. Everytime I open the door to the office, his workstation is the first I check out.
He just treats me so well in the aspects that my guy do not. So there’s the attraction.
I feel myself liking him more and more. And he feels like he’s starting to be really into me.
I know I could fall for him. But, like me, he has his baggages to carry. We have agreed to keep things as they are, as long as we’re both happy.
I know this could turn into something very complicated but it does not faze me. The intricacy of the situation turns me on. I have always wondered how much I could get away with. I’m always wanting to push the boundaries.
Let’s just hope my world does not come crashing down when all this is over.
But for now, let me enjoy the ride.
